Self Cycles: A Journey of Identity

This personal illustration captures a woman’s growth and transformation, serving as a metaphor for life’s journey. In many Asian cultures, societal expectations dictate a structured life path—one that must stay on track, especially when it comes to marriage. The carousel symbolizes the cyclical nature of life and self-awakening, set within a dreamscape. 

Three floating faces represent key life stages: An infant’s bleeding tears mark the first clash with reality. A fractured teenage face embodies identity struggles. An elderly smile reflects wisdom and transcendence.

At the center, a melting house symbolizes societal constraints, with a half-open door and outstretched legs hinting at the struggle to break free and embark on self-reinvention. Surrounding it, four symbolic mounts represent evolving self-awareness: Childhood: A teddy bear with a third eye, innocence touched by an emerging awareness of deeper truths. Adolescence: A black cat—rebellion, mystery, the awakening of sensuality, and search for self. Adulthood: A bizarre fish, caught between longing for freedom and defining identity, echoing the question, “Who am I?” Old Age: A burning hand, with a falling ring symbolizing release from societal expectations, its glow marking time’s passage and a guiding light toward true freedom.

The vibrant, chaotic natural background reflects an inner world unbound by societal norms. On the carousel, innocence, hope, and dreams intertwine—life itself, beautiful yet paradoxical. Though the ride must end, its echoes remain.

I want to keep it open to interpretation, allowing each viewer to find their own meaning and emotional connection to the illustration.